Over the last 6-8 weeks, my highs have been really high and my lows have been really low. I finished my class with an A, continued to become very comfortable and settled with sharing how I feel (respectfully but uncensored and unfiltered), I'm back to being a soccer and football mom and then........one morning I woke up and could not move. Everything joint in my body hurt and my muscles and body were completely fatigued. Thirty-five vials of blood, x-rays, a bone biopsy, a bone marrow biopsy, a rheumatologist, a hematologist/oncologist and weeks later.....still no diagnosis. I've heard whispers of leukemia, bone cancer, lupus, and arthritis. I had not been so unsettled in all of my life. Not for fear of a diagnosis, but the waiting. Thank God, they have ruled out everything they could think of....they were scary things and I was ready to fight, but where does that leave me? I am doing much better now. Still a medicine lab rat and achy from time to time, but drastic a improvement. The only thing that bothers me is that there is no diagnosis. Will this continue to get better, go away or come back again one morning? I don't know, but I can't or won't stop living while I am waiting to find out. I am going to do what I can...
My bone marrow biopsy came back clean, so I immediately registered my info on the National Bone Marrow Registry. I was blessed not to have cancer and if I can help someone else beat cancer I will. The biopsy was not pleasant by any means, but I know it doesn't compare to the emotional or physical suffering that cancer patients have to deal with every day. (I had a SMALL taste myself) ....My boys and I will be participating in a 30 hour famine fundraiser. We will be educating ourselves on the suffering around the world, raising money and fasting for 30 hrs to experience what it is like to truly be hungry. (More info will come soon on how you can learn more, donate or join us.) We are blessed and we need to recognize that everyday there is someone that would thankful for the things that we often take for granted.
I was given lemons, but I choose to make lemonade and I plan to make sure that it is a never-ending glass. : )
