Lemons to Lemonade

Over the last 6-8 weeks, my highs have been really high and my lows have been really low.  I finished my class with an A, continued to become very comfortable and settled with sharing how I feel (respectfully but uncensored and unfiltered), I'm back to being a soccer and football mom and then........one morning I woke up and could not move.  Everything joint in my body hurt and my muscles and body were completely fatigued.  Thirty-five vials of blood, x-rays, a bone biopsy, a bone marrow biopsy, a rheumatologist, a hematologist/oncologist and weeks later.....still no diagnosis.  I've heard whispers of leukemia, bone cancer, lupus, and arthritis.  I had not been so unsettled in all of my life.  Not for fear of a diagnosis, but the waiting.  Thank God, they have ruled out everything they could think of....they were scary things and I was ready to fight, but where does that leave me?  I am doing much better now. Still a medicine lab rat and achy from time to time, but drastic a improvement. The only thing that bothers me is that there is no diagnosis. Will this continue to get better, go away or come back again one morning?  I don't know, but I can't or won't stop living while I am waiting to find out.  I am going to do what I can...

My bone marrow biopsy came back clean, so I immediately registered my info on the National Bone Marrow Registry.  I was blessed not to have cancer and if I can help someone else beat cancer I will.  The biopsy was not pleasant by any means, but I know it doesn't compare to the emotional or physical suffering that cancer patients have to  deal with every day. (I had a SMALL taste myself) ....My boys and I will be participating in a 30 hour famine fundraiser.  We will be educating ourselves on the suffering around the world, raising money and fasting for 30 hrs to experience what it is like to truly be hungry. (More info will come soon on how you can learn more, donate or join us.)  We are blessed and we need to recognize that everyday there is someone that would thankful for the things that we often take for granted.

I was given lemons, but I choose to make lemonade and I plan to make sure that it is a never-ending glass. : )

First Test Done!!!!

I just finished my first exam and a weight has truly been lifted off of my shoulders. Now all I have to do is  stress about how well I did until I get my grade. ;  ) Wish me luck!

Late night.

First of all, CONGRATULATIONS! to all that have recently graduated...especially my niece Brentney. You are truly my hero.

So much going on...I am trying to plan two birthday celebrations, help plan my niece's graduation party, choose and coordinate summer camps/plans and study.  That's right, study.  Due to recent events in my life it has become a must that I seek employment.  I am currently taking my last class towards becoming a Medical Reimbursement Specialist. That's just a fancy way of saying that I will be working in coding and billing for medical facilities. ; ) I just finished reading and three workbook pages and I am exhausted.  A full day of being a teacher, a mom of two boys (and all that entails and yes it makes a difference that I have boys..those that have boys definitely understand...OMG!), laundry, cooking, etc. and now two additional hours of studying. YAY!..NOT! I like what I am studying and I pray that it will be worth it, but I am just tired. BUT, my boys are definitely worth it.  They don't live an extravagant lifestyles by any means, so I want to make sure that they will always be able to have access to the things that mean alot to them.  Like I said, they are worth it. Well, as a pick me up, I'm about to sign off and have some jello that my boys made and set aside just for me.  Ryan said that he wanted me to eat it today...technically it's already tomorrow, but he's sleeping so it will be our little secret. wink. wink. I hope that I can stay awake long enough to eat it. My boys love and take care of me and I will do WHATEVER I have to for them.  Because I love them and again, because they are worth it. ; ) Enough rambling....It's Jello time! Nite. nite or technically Morning...anyway bye!

~You may not always reap where you sow, but you will reap what you sow.~

Serenity Prayer

I need serenity.....
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change; courage to change the things that I can; and the wisdom to know the difference."

Want -vs- Have

"Don't let the things you want make you forget about the things you have."
                                                                                                                      ~Actor, Rapper "Ice T"~

Reminder: Don't judge the messenger, just listen to the message.